Being Open to Receive

Something I know I struggle with is accepting and receiving help, abundance, and blessings. I feel myself cringe and fill with guilt whenever someone offers help to me. I even run into this when my husband does it, so it isn’t about the other person, it’s all about me!

I’m the one who has trouble accepting help. I’m the one who’s inner mean girl always pipes up and screams, “you can do it yourself! You don’t need help! That person doesn’t have any more than you do, why should you accept assistance from them? You’re going to make them feel like they’re being used. You’re a bad person if you accept what they’re offering you!”

It has taken me a long time to recognize that monologue from my inner mean girl. It’s taking even longer for me to turn her off and accept what is being offered.

It started with taking my husband’s hand when he offers to help me get out of my chair. I didn’t want to take the assistance because I didn’t want to hurt him, or for him to hurt himself helping me. I also didn’t want to admit that I was having trouble getting up on my own, especially since I had COVID in January 2020. I’m tired more easily and it’s often hard for me to breathe. One day I realized I needed his help, whether I wanted it or not, and I started accepting his help and…